I'm not feeling well these past days... My fever went from as high as 40, that was last Monday. It eventually went down next day morning but again went up in the evening. I was rushed to ER this morning ... Since my fever was also accompanied by occasional nose bleeding. My mom thought I had dengge or meninggoc whatever... I had a CBC test and to my relief my platelets are ok, negative of dengge. My mom insisted that I'd be confined but the doctor left the decision to me... And so I wasn't confined.
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 6:52 PM|
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