Its already 3:36am and I'm still awake! Grr... I've been coughing-like-forever. I've already vomitted twice my throat feels sore from the coughing and vomitting... I just want to sleep! but everytime I lay down I cough and have to go the washroom. Counting down... Its 6 days before christmas... This is my 1st christmas that I didn't shop for gifts since I've been sick. My trip to bacolod...delayed... I was supposed to be there by christmas but since I'm still sick my mom moved it before new year.
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 3:38 AM|
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