Every start of the year I always see to it that I have my "mantra" which would be my inspiration through out the whole year. Last Dec 8, 2004 I had the chance to watch Lea Salonga's Home for Christmas at the Araneta ,despite my condition, and this particular song struck me the most ( Leas' version was delivered with great passion). It was the first time that I actually heard the full version.
Heart don't fail me now,
Courage don't desert me,
Don't turn back now that we're here.
People always say,
Life is full of choices,
No one ever mentions fear.
Or how our road can seem so long,
How the road can seem so vast.
Courage see me through,
Heart I'm trusting you,
On this journey to the past.
Somewhere down this road,
I know someone's waiting,
Years of dreams just can't be wrong.
Arms will open wide,
I'll be safe and wanted,
Finally home where I belong.
Well starting here my life begins,
Starting now I'm learning fast.
Courage see me through,
Heart I'm trusting you on this journey to the past.
Heart don't fail me now courage don't desert me.
Home,
Love,
Family
There was once a time I must have had them to.
Home,
Love,
Family
I will never be complete until I find you hey.
One step at a time,
One hope then another,
Who knows where this road may go.
Back to who I was,
On to find my future,
Things my heart still needs to know.
Yes let this be a sign,
Let this road be mine,
Let it lead me to my past.
Courage see me through,
Heart I'm trusting you,
To bring me home,
At last,
At last,
Ooh (courage see me through heart I'm trusting you)
hey yeaah (repeat)
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 7:20 PM|
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