I'm currenlty listening to Sarah McLachlan's "Afterglow" which best describes my current state. I've been feelin' sleepy these past few days and I wonder about tomorrow... Dosage would be increased again I'll be taking them 3 times/day.
I'm feeling creative so I bought some coloring books last Sunday. Coloring books are expensive nowadays... I was looking for those jumbo coloring books that my mom used to buy me when I was still little (those were considered serious stuff then along with matching BIG Crayons... hehe). Browsing through I saw a couple of "fake jumbo coloring books" why fake? because way back in my time (GEESH! I'm really getting OLD!!!) They used to make really thick jumbo coloring books not just 1 inch thick books I'm taking about 2-3 inches thick coloring books.I could visualize myself as a little girl begging my mom over and over until she gives in and buy me a copy. Somewhat contented I settled for a more mature fairy themed coloring book. It takes me at least 1-2 days to finish coloring a page since I feel sleepy at times, first 15-20 mins I'm hyped and coloring about... And the next off to ZZZzzZZzzz Land.
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
which best describes my current state. I've been feelin' sleepy these past few days and I wonder about tomorrow... Dosage would be increased again I'll be taking them 3 times/day.
ZZZzzZZzzz Land.
t-na @ 4:42 PM|
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