Recent events just made me build up my wall (again) ... way up... further than the Great Wall of China. It's sad really... less and less people can be trusted nowadays. The "most" disappointing is that even those you've considered "FRIENDS" can't also be trusted. Well the experience has been an eye opener and made me closer to my family. Your family is there for you no matter what and I can attest to that.
Again I was hesitant to post this but..what the heck let them read... if they even bother to. I'm tired of forgiving and forgetting, when I know that I can't really forget and when it just keeps on happening. They can talk and say all they want to say behind my back. All I can say is that they just lost my respect and they lost a friend.
I'm moving on... brushing off unwanted elements and looking forward to a new tomorrow.
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 9:50 PM|
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