The year just started and I've accomplished more than what I expected myself to do. One by one I'm conquering my demons. Ideals, thoughts I've mentioned here in my blog has finally been turned into action.
I've been so busy these past few weeks, too busy to even watch TV! I missed a number of American Idol episodes. I managed to watch a few reruns but my mind just keeps on wandering thinking of things that I must do and want to do. It's as if 24 hours a day isn't enough for me, I'm pumped up for greatness.
My journey is not exactly smooth. There are a lot of boulders on my way trying to block my path, from people who you least expected and I feel so sorry for them. No matter how big the stones they throw on me, nothing can stop me from being the best that I can be. I'm sorry... they'd have to put up and get used to the new me, the NEW T-NA!
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 12:52 AM|
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