With Father's Day around the block I've decided to make Papa a flip book (mini-album) as big as a ΒΌ yellow pad paper. Last year... oh hehe didn't even greet my dad since we had an argument a few days before Father's Day. Come to think of it... we always had an argument whenever he comes home to take a vacation. My dad is approachable, friendly yet traditional/conservative and borderline strict wherein you think you got away with it but he reprimands through mama (pass the message) after the deed has been done. There are certain beliefs or values that we don't agree on and when I know I'm right I really fight for what I believe, especially if I know that I'm 110% sure that I'm correct. Papa on the other hand is stubborn and won't waive an argument even if what he says is already off the topic only to prove that what he says is correct. Haaha! I remembered waking up one early morning, Mama and Papa was having breakfast and I decided to join them. Both of them are in the same field Maritime and Shipping, they were sharing their experiences with their co-workers and some gossip. Sharing became a healthy conversation...then a debate. They were throwing viewpoints and position with regards to Manpower in my mom's company vs. my dad's company, who is better, who has the most and the least. I was just listening and laughing out loud during their debate. Ayaw talaga magpatalo ni papa.
I have a typical first name and that is Kristina. It could be spelled-out in different ways (Cristina, Christina, Xtina and what have you) but nevertheless it still sounds the same. For the last 2 decades of my existence, my name has evolved from Maria, tin-tin, Kristina, Kristeta, tina, tins and in an effort to be unique I finally chose a hyphenated name now I am t-na.
Mood Swings
Confessions
I always said the right things, throwing smiles left and right, ignoring "unpleasant" scenarios pretend that it didn't happen. I found it difficult to say NO, even though I really don't want to do it. To top it off, I always believed that "If I could just be nice to other people, maybe they will also be nice to me in return". Now, realizing that all of that crap I thought of is just full of shit since a lot of people took advantage of my disposition. Some of them even recognized that I was gullible and naive but instead of correcting me, they completely did the opposite. I've treasured momments of reflection and meditation, the healing of wounds. One day I'll face and conquer my demons...
t-na @ 4:30 AM|
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